QC, I agree with you. The mathematics of the universe are beautiful. What is especially beautiful to me is how it all happens without god. We now understand how it likely came to be. We also understand how the automatic processes brought the universe to where it is. Nowhere has there ever been a need for a creator. Not "in the beginning," not now.
How do you reconcile god's absenteeism? And don't give me that "gods ways are mysterious, universal sovereignty" baloney. Why will god take a break from giving starving kids AIDS in third world countries to help Christians in meaningless areas of their lives, but won't take a second to actually do any good? Is he not able?
When a natural disaster happens, we legally call it an 'act of god.' Why does god get the blame for insurance purposes but not for every other tragedy? Did he do any of it? Does he do ANY good at all? Why is he such an asshole?
You say you cannot be an atheist because you see purpose in creation.. Ok fine be that way. But answer this: given my points above, does he deserve to be revered and worshipped? If he is real, does he deserve this royal treatment? Do you believe in the bible? Do you believe he actually did all those things in the OT? If he did then he certainly is capable of causing all kinds of harm today. Why worship him? I'd say a block of wood deserves more worship. At least you can light it on fire and get some real benefit from it. Come on QC, make me a believer again.
Oh and if you wouldn't mind actually responding instead of copy/pasting YouTube vids that you don't understand, that would be great.